No Cactus U

Well, I was going to post about my nice visit to Cactus U, how I had all kinds of positive feelings about the place, and how it was the only job I've ever been up for that I actually wanted. But this afternoon I got a call saying that they were going to make an offer to someone else. So now there's no point in saying those nice things. One of my letter writers is having me check to see if there's something that I did to mess up in the non-academic part of the interview (job talk, sample class both clearly went very well) -- this is entirely plausible, although it unfortunately does tie in with my many paranoid tendencies and insecurities. (All of which are probably not serving me well during these "informal" interactions.) Anyway, I'm feeling pretty bummed out, especially as it looked like my peripatetic ways might finally be over, and that I could settle down in a place I liked and in a department that I liked. And instead it's back to the drawing board once more. I think I'm going to just lay low for a while...

Over and out,
P